siew_ap_jai

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 20:43:59 GMT

been a long week, i think its the heat effecting everyone. been a long time since i used this last, better update something. well, went thai square on friday for jessi and karens bday, who dont actually know each other but luckily they both wanted to go to the same place to celebrate kill 2 birds wit 1 stone!

the nite was bit poo at first, waiting for people to turn up and stuff and then missioned it up to lloyds wit cc whilst my mates went to thai, then finding lloyds last entry has passed ¬__¬ so missioned it back down to thai to meet back wit everyone.

had stupid runny nose but soon disappeared as the drinks was being thrown down my throat. just as i was getting pissed, the 2 bday girls got there before me and soon i find myself running up and down the stairs and chatting to the bouncers to let me out and back in, yes, i was looking after the 2 as they was puking all over the place

well jessi fell asleep first on someones lap, then on my lap, then onto someone elses, lol and then i went to look after karen >__<

wierd nite, quite a few people was pissed, they suddenly one by one disappeared leaving me and m cousin, but then we only had like 5min walk home damn i need to learn to control myself in tough situations, but then i was under the influence of alcohol and i think i did pretty well cus i did stop and explain, well tried to...... but didnt seem to work cus it carried on again >___<

hong kong in just over 2 weeks time! woohoo! and my cousins getting married in 2 weeks time! need to buy pressie and get my suit

update.....

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 21:41:06 GMT

OMG havent updated this thing in ages! life seems wierd at the mo, im feeling tired more and more everyday something wrong wit me? >__< maybe im working too hard..... need to go out more ^__^

stooopid traffic yesterday, left the house at 8am and got to work at 11am! 3 bloody hours to do a 25mile journey! ¬___¬ this big lorry and tipped on its side covering slow and middle lane of the M4 and also knocking down the fence on the otherside where a A road is.... i was sooooo bored and tired

another crash on the M4 today but luckily i missed it, aparently the queues where building up from junction 5/6 to junction 10, i leave at junction 10 so was all good! bosses came down today to the office, my promotion is finally getting somewhere now but the amount is less then i was looking for but he did say stick with it for few months then he will try and increase it, more waiting..... maybe i wont last that long in that company????

yet to see star wars ep3, need to watch it soon before it disappears from cinema, some people say its wicked and some say its poo but as its star wars, u gotta watch it...

do people still use this? ('',)

Tue, 31 May 2005 00:23:21 GMT

how hot was friday???? that was like 30degrees, made me think about the weather in hkg when i go back, gonna be sooooo damn hot and humid i remember the last time i went back in summertime and the weather reached 40degrees and it was sooo humid, as soon as u walk out of the airconditioned airport, the heat just hits u in the face and im not exaggerating! it really does hit u. checked on yahoo weather and its thundering all week there but the rain suppose to take the temperature down but it was still 30 degrees! so imagine it when its not raining, also i dont think its the peak season yet.....

well sunday was fun, went to friends house for a bbq, wasnt sure if it was gonna rain or not so had the oven thought in our minds but luckily was ok we started to play with the hot coal after, throwing tissue and cheese and tomato sauce, it bloody stank! then went into town for a few drinks and just chatted till like 11pm and went off home, was a fun day.

today i went to ticro and got my haircut, then went to brb to meet sisters, didnt bother calling friends out cus wasnt gonna be in london for long as i had things to do at home. saw this wierd guy in brb, he had his headphones on and was just randomly dancing, everyone was thinking WTF i tried to record him but everytime i got my fone sorted, he stopped and he was a bit far and behind a pillar. but could see him quite clearly on the mirrors above the bar, for those who been in brb should know what i mean :p

well went for thai food in waterloo, place called "thai silk" was very nice there, came up to bout 60quid for the 4 of us, was worth it. nice restaurant too.

well thats it for now....

Mon, 23 May 2005 23:34:56 GMT

well, saturday nite went to place in soho called Hi Sushi, was quite nice there, 15quid a buffet but wasnt feeling too hungry so didnt eat much. then we walked around central looking for a bar but then decided to go straight to thai square. there was me, chi, emily, carrie, ling and wei then halfway we met erik! well got into thaisquare and went straight to the bar

had some drinks and shots and then paul and his gf arrived. was kinda pissed already by then and then ken and his friend from bmi arrived! good to see u again , then ray, jen, pui, zak, and my sor mui!!!!!! hehehe who thought i was some strange random guy standing in front of her ¬____¬ lol

well after that, i couldnt remember what happened.... was in the toilet for over 2 hours i think, maybe even 3! >___< i was all over the place, all i remember was i went out to sit on the stairs, then the bouncers told me to go away, so i moved to the wall, then i got told to go upstairs, then the bouncer upstairs told me to go downstairs O_o well i ended up sitting in the cubicle and fell asleep, lol

maybe my drink had gone past its sell by date? i didnt even drink that much, i normally have way more then what i drank on sat and still feel fine..... wierd...... it was bloody freezing after >___< thanx to everyone who looked after me ^___^ well, thats it for now.....

Sat, 21 May 2005 13:22:01 GMT

after talking to cp last nite bout house/trance music, i managed to dig out my old FC Kahuna album "machine says yes", Trance nation 2003 and Mauro Picotto "the others" i use to listen to house/trance and stuff all the time, i guess i just been lazy since i finished uni, havent been keeping up with much. use to listen to Radio1 essential mix on sat nites everyweek, or get someone to record it, got a massive collection of live mixes from around the world be various DJs on tape. heres a few to name.....

homelands 2001 - seb fontaine, digweed, layo & bushwacka

judge jules

essential relief at Home, leicester square good few years back (comic relief)

world DJ day at fabric

tom middleton

sasha & digweed in miama

fergie & oake

oake at gatecrasher

H Foundation

Parks & Wilson

Sander Klienenberg

Unkle - James lavelle

Circulation........etc etc etc

Mon, 16 May 2005 20:36:18 GMT

ooops, managed to hit 125 but was being very careful at the sametime, i wont go any faster now the car has been taken off me so back to the polo now..... got my new fone so have 2 contracts going on, works out more cheaper so its all good. the nokia 6680 is pretty cool fone, still think the camera on the sharp fones are much better even tho some fones are 2 megapixel

Wed, 11 May 2005 18:26:02 GMT

woohoo, got a ford mondeo tdi from the company! only for a few days tho cus got a conference to go to on friday somewhere near northampton.... gonna be sooooo boring!
gotta be up like 5am then drive to work to pick some people up, that takes like 45mins to get to... drive to conference, finish at 5pm then drive all the way back again, prob wont be home till like 8-9pm >_< well no spamming for me on thursday nite then =(
havent driven a big car b4, i driven my dads bmw 3 series b4 which is pretty cool. ah also gotta take my car for service tomorrow morning and pick up my courtesy car, woohoo 2 new cars in 2 days! ^^

MIFFY!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 10 May 2005 23:43:56 GMT

rite, been very lazy to update recently, im kinda gone back to using dl again after being absent from the site for months! over 300 posts in 3 days isnt bad

spoke to boss today, he's delayed my promotion yet again as he not coming down to our office till next thursday but he did say when its sorted, he'd backdate my pay! heheh but not sure how many months...... so that should be cool, hopefully get it sorted in time for hkg in july i hope! gonna be sooo hot! ive decided to take up badminton again, fancy shooting some hoops too but MLGT play sooo early and normally on sat/sun, work on sat and sunday is sleep in day for me as i work 6 days a week

hmmm.... whats happening on 21st may...... wonder if theres any events going on if not, then i guess maybe thai, its been a while, hehehe i really want a new car, preferably a civic type r, white one. my mate has a pic of a white one and looks well nice! but cant afford it and my insurance would be well high especially after crashing last year just before xmas

done my back in over weekend, lower part on the spinal area, i here its a bad spot, once u done it in, itll keep coming back to haunt u kinda thing, my dad gets that all the time! well its better now, but its now more painful higher up the spine i think its cus the bottom section is constantly tense and makes me walk funny, this puts pressure on the top half, guess i just need more rest.

gotta fix my cousins computer tomorrow, prob have to format it, he's got sooo much crap on it (i know ur reading this )

well enough for now.........

Wed, 04 May 2005 16:44:27 GMT

Mon, 02 May 2005 22:35:21 GMT

>___< i really need to sort this thing out wit her!

im not lying to her but im not wanting anything either..... but really should just tell her straight up. for some reason, i think shes can be quite scary and evil, especially to someone she hates. hope that wont be me after i said my bit, just gotta wait for the right time to say it..... wish me luck! >__

URGENT!!!!!

Mon, 02 May 2005 12:10:51 GMT

right, need a poo >___

Sun, 01 May 2005 23:44:38 GMT

went london today and saw these amazing dolls! first they looked well scary and freaky but then i really wanted one! the one in red is my fav, was soooo gonna buy it but then looked at the price tag..... £30 >__<

oh these are the dolls where u can stick needles in them, like those voodoo doll kinda thing......

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 00:46:17 GMT

hmmm.... very confused now, dont know what to do...

dont u just hate questions like.... "do i look fat in this?" what am i suppose to say? and when a few of these questions go ur way and u answer them nicely, it would be leading them on.... ah i dont know what to do now hasnt started and i dont think i want it to start but feels like its going that way..... eeeks best to be straight and tell her how i feel and cause less harm.... but im really crap at this, dont wanna harm anyone

any suggestions?

randomness......

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 21:02:49 GMT

erm.... not much to write but thought its been a while since i last made an entry.
well, gettin more and more lazy at work cus my work mate keeps showing me these flash games on the internet and im getting hooked on them >_< not even suppose to use the internet! but i guess its ok as i have everything up to date and under control ^.^

the car? service on the 12th and brake pads changing on next week on tuesday! dont think it can last till 12th cus im doing 250miles a week just for work and tomorrow im going hatfield after work then sunday to london, tuesday to london, im taking it easy already but on the braking already, dont wanna damage the brake disc and having to fork out for a new one, that'll be a rite pain >___<

er... yea, not much exciting to update cus nothing has really happened... BORING :p
need to get tickets to hkg sorted very soon before those tickets disappear, waiting for people to get there money together first.... should be fun ^.^

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 03:03:21 GMT

it took me a while writing this comment on someones xanga so i thought why waste it and decided to post it on here too, lol

let go of the past, look to the future, its the only way people can move on. it doesnt matter how long u take, some people take ages to get over things and some in few days, everyone is different and have different ways of thinking, as long as in the end, ur over it and get on wit life.

"no point wasting time with some no-hoper which u cant see anhing with in 5/10years down the line! total waste of time and money!! anyone think the same?!"

hmm.... yea i agree and i think most people would too, but i guess it just happens, wouldnt call them tarts or anything. and as slagos mentioned, some people dont like being alone and not having a bf/gf for a very long time can actually get to some people.... im not talking about the physical side of a relationship but im sure that also has something to do wit it.

no-one can foresee the future, i thought my ex and i would be together forever, we broke up after 4 months. so whats to say that being in a relationship that u cant see lasting more then a year become a life time relationship? alot of unexpected things happen in this world, im sure u seen some happy partners that ud never expect them to be together. its giving a person chance, it may work out, it may not, least u can say u tried and then u know for sure it wont work. if it does work out then u gave someone a chance and found the love of ur life.

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 00:37:53 GMT

went to london today, met up wit some friends that i havent seen since leaving uni. was a good meet up, talking bout the years living in manor house hermitage road and st anns road. brought back some memories, the house parties, the mixes the random guys appearing at our house like 4 in the morning and some geezer pissing himself on our couch! >.<

ahahah, it was good living out during uni time.... cant wait to live out again but just wouldnt be the same when working, more responsibility and i guess, things to do...... so its a good idea to do another degree? wouldnt mind actually, would actually try harder, prob not a degree but maybe masters? i really need to specialise in a subject im good at and enjoy rather then just doing bits and bobs.

more money to be spent on my car >__< its due for a service which prob costs like 200 quid and today the warning lights come up for my brake pads so need to change them, not sure how long they will last for...... dunno when i can change them.... is it dangerous to drive at the mo?????

oh and my tyres need changing, its wearing on the sides from cornering i think... do i need to change my driving style? the cars a 02, so 3 years old and this would be the 3rd time im changing the tyres and 2nd time im changing the brake pads O___O

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 21:30:22 GMT

think its about time for an update. so whats been happening.... seems like its been a busy week for me, worked friday day and nite, sat nite, sun nite then worked the 9-5, pretty sure i went somewhere on monday nite but cant remember, chilled tuesday nite, hectic wednesday at work cus boss and surveyors was in the office. i was rushing about doing this and that, making sure all the surveyors was up to date and stuff. then went to hatfield dah been lo! was fun, didnt eat much tho, wasnt really hungry.

all this week been sleeping like 4am and suprisingly been getting to work early! havent been early for work for months! and thats not exaggerating! it was after my mate left the company in november have i starting being late everyday. now that i been sleeping at 4am, im early for work twice in a row! dont know how that works.....

hmmm... someone wants me to go round their house, its like 10.15pm! gonna take me an hour to get there minimum! i nearly fell asleep last nite driving home, had to fone suz to keep me up, thanx SUZ!
if i knew earlier i woulda went but its bit late now.
finally got my PAC code from vodafone so i can transfer my number to ????? i think its gonna be the 3 network, altho everyone says its crap, i think im gonna have to go for it, 2000 minutes and 300 texts for £100 a month..... i guess u get what u pay for. it musta improved by now tho, no?? :/

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 11:29:50 GMT

err.... just found out my bill is currently £207.34 and thats not including the £75 line rental and text pack!

thats well expensive >___< im gonna be sooooo skint again =(

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 15:06:56 GMT

hmmmm.... getting new fone today went out the window!

hoping that vodafone would offer me a good deal so foned up saying i need my puk number so i can transfer my number to a different network, hoping they would ask me why am i leaving, how much other networks offering etc etc to get me to stay, instead they said yea sure, we'll send ur puk number thru the post >_<

ok that idea backfired....... so now looking to switch networks, im spending like 150 a month on fone bills and few months ago my bill was like 340 quid! if they not bothered bout losing a high user customer then so be it. well good thing is, is that i can now get my nokia 6680 either on 3 network (poo) or orange.... decisions decisions.....

but need to wait for puk number to come thru the post first, deffo wanna keep my number, had it for over 5 years!

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 02:37:41 GMT

i took a life today =(

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 00:36:07 GMT

grrrr..... really want the nokia 6680 but stupid vodafone says they wont be getting it in, only available for orange and 3 network >__< 3 network is crap and i hear theres loadsa complaints from customers, orange is good but havent got the tariff i want.
also if i stayed with vodafone and got upgrade, i could get 500 xnet minutes anytime and 100 texts for £15 a month for 12 months! hehe, offer i cant refuse but now i need to find new fone >__<

rite, so i guess its either.....

samsung D500 black
samsung D500 silver
samsung E720

awww was looking forward to going back to nokia! i would get the sharp GX40 but not sure when its out, i got the GX30 and even tho the cameras out now are higher megapixel, the quality of the screen is still better on sharp fones, sharp's screens comes out nice and crisp. but only prob is, when taking fotos, u gotta keep really still.

well going to see my cousin in fone shop tomorrow, mite buy one if i decided.....

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 17:29:33 GMT

rite ive had this cough for over a week now..... its getting quite annoying but glad the blood has stopped O_o

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 01:02:56 GMT

Jin and I are best fren..we do anything that best fren do...One day, i realised that i love him...so
i decided to confessed this feeling to him one nite where we camp with other frens. he said yes, he
would be my boyfren..

So we went on like other gurlfrenboyfren's life does. Watch movie, walk in park, eat together, go to
beach....but life's not fun as when we are still best fren....he also doesnt talk much, or act like we are
best fren, close and share everything...for me, he is not a suitable or loving boyfren...but i kept quitely
this on my mind...

But since the day he bcome my boyfren, he every single day would give me a small teddy bear...At
first i thought it was lovely, but till now, i wonder why he would gav me this...

One day, i was walking alone at a park. Then i saw Jin talking to another gurl. I walk toward him and i
overheard him saying "i love u' to the gurl. I was really angry and i run home coz Jin never told me
he love me all the time we been boyfren and gurlfren.

Then, at midnite that day, he come to my house and i open the door. He just passed me the teddy
bear that he used to give me everyday and said sorry coz i didn't giv u this today. i was really angry
and i shouted at him,

"Why u alwiz giv me this crap? All i wan to hear from u is, I love you, that's it, izit too hard???"

Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the teddy bear on my palm and left away..i throw the
teddy bear into my cupboard.

The next day, Jin asked me out. We meet at bus stop near my house..i walk there and then he just
gav me a big teddy bear,my anger was still in high position,and i throw the teddy to the middle of the
road. He keep quiet and then he go to the middle of the road and pick the teddy up. He dint realise a
truck was coming towards him. I shouted at him not to pick it up and he was about look at
me,and...........................

*Bang*.

"JIN!!!!!!" I shouted...the nex minute he was lying on the road, covered with blood. He was sent to the
hospital but it's too late...i lost him...forever....

after attended his funeral, i went back home and i hug all the teddy bear he gav me since the day we
bcome gfbf...i counted the teddy bear one by one... 1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and the last
teddy bear he gave covered with his blood was the 365th...it had been a year we bcome bfgf...i queeze
the teddy bear with the tears flow....suddenly...

*I love you~*
*I love you~*

i was shocked..i looked at the teddys...and i take one of it, and try to press on his tummy..

*I love you~*

i tried each and every teddy bear he gav me...

*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*......................

and the biggest and the last teddy bear Jin gav me, I squeeze his big tummy...

*felicia, today is our very first annivery being bfgf after a year.....i always love you, yesterday, today,
and forever........I love you....*

i dropped the teddy bear........

i never realised that Jin had actually told me those words..every single day....till today...

i slowly picked the teddy and i whispered to the teddy's ear..

"i love you too, Jin..and i always did........"

Repost this....ok...

For the guys/gals that you loved
Tell them "i'll love u more than i cud b....
i'll care abt u more than i'm carin abt myself...
u're always the 1 in my heart...

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 19:41:08 GMT

hai.... been feeling wierd lately, cant seem to think straight, even work is becoming more and more wierd, just cant be arsed. i think this week has really worn me out a bit, then this week too is gonna be sooo busy again. really need to just stay in and not go out, SLEEP EARLY would also help. i find if u sleep more then normal, ur day feels poo cus it actually makes u more tired!

spammed for first time in ages on dl, im not addicted anymore! woohoo! dont know, just havent had the urge to go on at the mo. i guess the longer i leave it, the less people i know and the less i know whats going on. i need to spend less time online and more time sorting my life out, alot of stuff to do, my future to sort out. keep saying this but not doing anything about it >__< hai.....

my life seems to be going downhill, nothing seems to be going right these days.....

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 14:46:46 GMT

which ones meeko and which ones daisy?
remember daisy is the scary one and meeko is the wimp :p